Never Been Comfortable As A s----l Being....

[autumndreamer (deleted)]

So I just never really got into it. When I had S-- it was usually because my ex wanted it, not because I did. I've never really been able to trust a partner completely in that regard. Whether it was the past abuse or whether I was born with a lower S-- drive than most, I just don't get what all the hoopla is about. lol.....
It can be a rotten way to live though. Looking for that love, affection, without being expected to "put out" can be almost hopeless. I'm not someone who enjoys the intercourse part, but I will admit that I love all the stuff that works up to it. ; )
For all intense purposes though, I'd rather have the cuddling, the hugs, the long slow kisses & even the butterfly kisses. The gentle touches & loving snuggles under the blankets on cold winter days. I'm not looking for "sex".........I'm looking for the LOVE.
Sometimes it feels like a lost cause, but it's all I've ever truly wanted or desired. I suppose I will have to give the S-- to get the rest...... =(

Blessings of Love & Friendship,
~ Tess ~

"LIFE::It's a HELL of a thing to happen to a person"

[missgamer]

autumndreamer wrote: So I just never really got into it. When I had S-- it was usually because my ex wanted it, not because I did.
It can be a rotten way to live though. Looking for that love, affection, without being expected to "put out" can be almost hopeless.
For all intense purposes though, I'd rather have the cuddling, the hugs, the long slow kisses & even the butterfly kisses. The gentle touches & loving snuggles under the blankets on cold winter days. I'm not looking for "sex".........I'm looking for the LOVE.

I totally get what you mean. But you shouldn't have to "give it up" to get what you're looking for. Ever heard of AVEN? The forums there can give you hope and support, if nothing else. =)